Hello Hello Mama! Hope you had a fab weekend. Stefan and I did a lot of taking Jack to the park to tire him out to ensure that 2 hour nap time. I mean the struggle is real, and sometimes I'm not sure my husband or the rest of the work gets it. We do not make plans in the middle of the afternoon because nap time is a sacred time. And mommy doesn't want to turn into a scary monster if someone messes with her sacred time.
Don't get me wrong, I love when Jack is awake but he's so cute asleep. He's been super super clingy to me lately. Any other mamas going through this stage? Jack is 15 months and he's glued to me 24/7, he literally has a full breakdown if I go to the bathroom with the door shut. I know as mothers all privacy surrounding our vaginas is gone, but I'd still like to pee with the door closed for the hell of it.
Back to the whole sacredness of nap time thing, well yesterday Jack fell asleep in the car and when we got home I transferred him. As soon as he hit the bed he woke up and nothing I could do would put him back down. He just stood there and cried like he was having an exorcism, it naturally hurts my heart but it also pissed me off if we're being honest.
Doesn't he know I need him to nap?! It's My time. I know it's so selfish of me and he has no idea. I decided I'd take him for a nice quiet drive hoping he'd go back to sleep, and instead he did not and I ended up uncontrollably letting tears stream down my face.
I was mad at myself and embarrassed for myself that I wanted him to take a nap so bad. He's been so clingy lately I feel like I haven't even taken a breath alone in weeks. I decided to turn the car around and go back home... after I drove through Starbucks for a cold brew. I just wanted to squeeze and kiss that chubby face of his and tell him he doesn't have to nap, and that mom is sorry for crying like a crazy person.
Motherhood is crazy like that, so full of emotions.
Needless to say he napped a little later and we spent the day with lots of hugs and kisses and I drank wine at 4:30pm. Judge if you will.
Now the recipe, if you've even read this far or skipped over my run-on and went straight to the ingredient list. I love you either way.
This dip is vegan and fucking amazing. I was eating it by the spoonful, with strawberries, and we had it on toast in the morning!
- 2 ripe avocados
- 1/2 cup maple syrup
- 1/2 cup cacao powder
- 1 tsp vanilla
Put all ingredients in a food processor and blend until smooth.
Will stay good in refrigerator for a week.